Greeting from the world of loneliness.
I am the one who lives in the country which is not my hometown you might be curious why?
Only reason is WORK
No matter what reason bring me here, I badly miss home every single second in the deep of my heart. Whoever never live far away from home might not understand. You can not just eat whatever you want or think of, not even understand what they are talking about also, you don't really know about the meaning of their culture or language sometimes.
Plus, sometimes my feeling is worse because of losing an encouragement from someone whom you think that he always loves and supports me.
Suddenly one day I realized myself I was truly alone and no one stood beside. Worthless feeling always comes to me every time I am trying to get attention from the ignorance that slightly made me realize why I am so stupid to still be here, what reason why I need to be struggling even if that person didn't even know or feel anything, who is he? Does he deserve my tear
However, one day I became stronger, strong enough to be alone and trying to focus what reason I came here for? What is the primary matter in my life? Does it LOVE? Yes, but it can be from a family which always give you the unconditional love also NOT just whoever you just knew quite a short time used to tell you LOVE.
Suddenly, whatever reason. I met one person.
we had a chance to talk.
had dinner just a short time.
BUT why I felt really comfortable to talk to him.
not only listening but also giving me a support.
All the feeling disturbed my heart till I couldn't sleep on that day.
A lot of thinking came to my mind
Anyway I really don't understand myself now why I heard my heart beats so hard when I just think of him whom I already knew since the first I came in this country
but why today my feeling is so badly uncontrolled.
Every time he walks beside.. the way he talks.. every word he says.
MY HEART IS INVIGORATED
We are actually not far away when we are together.. but I never feel like... Dare to touch him
